i went to the SINGAPORE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS

haha. can u believe it? i actually walked the whole zoo today. haha. got up and head down with fred. haha.

the main animal i would love to see is THE SNAKES. haha. thats for the zoo. but as for sentosa, its the GREAT WHITE. haha. i didnt get to see great white last year, when i headed down with shar. haha. took pictures with a fake great white in the end. haha!

alrights. saw many many animals. and they're damn cute and huge man. and i also touched the cute pony. damn cute. i wanted to touch the Horse. but when i reach my hands out.. im afraid it might just bite me lar. haha. or maybe eat me. haha!

saw white tiger..man..damn nice. haha. saw cheetahs. man i love their mao. haha! theres one, the mao look so new lor. haha.

and saw this animal that has an ass thats freaking red. haha. and saw guinea pigs thats horny haha. and saw cows with big balls. haha!

haha. and it rained!!!!

these are the pictures taken..


dont ask me what animal is it. coz i forgot liao. haha.




these cute little animals. cute right! haha.


i feel this birdy love to take pictures. haha. posed for it. haha.


one more time.




omg. im with the PENGUINS!!! jealous? hahahahahahahahahaa..


damn cute. esp the way they swim.. super cute. so small and CUTE. hahah


would anyone eat this old TORTISE? hahaha. the skin is sooooooo loose. hahahahaha. it seems to me that it had not bathed for a tough long time. haha!

i went to the REPTILE PLACE. the place im looking forward to. but i fear them. haha.


this is the COBRA. omg!!!!!






this is the rattlesnake. haha. has a rocky kinda skin..i didnt touch it. i read from the "thing". haha




and THIS is a HUGE FAT erm i mean MUSCULAR PYTHON! eeeeeee! damn long and huge. its in the water. eeeeee!!! i felt my mao standing. haha!


even mosquitoes doesnt wanna give me a break.


its us. haha!




its RHINO right? haha




its me! its me!!!!!!




camels are damn cute when they're eating. just look at the way they start munching. hahah


me and camel


fred and camel. haha


i love giraffes!!!!!! they are damn tall! and has nice mao mao!! haha!


tall bo? hahaha




one male and five females. man this lion is a FLIRT.


is this the da lao po? first wife? hahahahahahahaha




oh my............ look at its mao! how nice.. look new right? hahaha!






this pony is damn cute and small. super cute. i love it. the feeling of touching it is like the feeling ur playing with your barbie dolls hair. hahaha. im serious. haha


i dont know if its a she or a he. but i want to call it SHE. okie. shes damn pretty! should be male? coz very muscular leh. hahha! okie.. its SHEMALE hahahahahaha!


beautiful eyes sheve got!


I LOVE HER! hahahahahaha..


these are THE GUINEA PIGS hahaha.




saw the WHITE one? its the HORNY one.


its us again


its a MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! haha


a mooo with big balls.


saw? haha.

and one of the mooooss at the back moooooooooo damn loud. haha!


we saw MEH MEH also!






im baby jessie elephant


he's old aged fred elephant. hahahahahahahaha! oppps. jk.


yipppppieeee! i saw elephant! have you got any idea how HUGE they are? they are reallllllyyyy BIG. haha!


this is the di pan of the REd ass animal. haha!


saw red asses? haha


i think this is ugly.


AINT this animal CUTE! such nice colour! its the WHITE TIGER!




pigs with horns. hahahaha






me!!!

thats the end of the pictures. hahaha!

excited to go to the zoo? its fun i feel. i had a great time. maybe you should go to the zoo someday! haha! zoo aint for small little kids or tourist only. haha!

i saw polar bear tooooo.. but no pics taken!... haha tell you something.. the animals in the zoo love to walk to the same place and same route and its many time. here to there and u turn and again. or even run for rounds hahahahaha! wierd bo? haha.

thats my day today! visit the zoo friends! its really fun!

alright. ive been good today. haha

got up and headed down to work. its boring at work. coz its a weekday and its boring lar. haha. i had a good time thou. haha. played games at work. and talked and jumped around there. gave out flyers too. haha. got back and said to everyone HI IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK! haha. and everyone..... just ignored me. aWwww. thats freaking hurtful to me!

okie. met rene after work. this woman is having gastric. and shes craving for beef noodle. haha. met her at Tbp and she ate Ban Mian instead. and i had popiah. haha. ate ice scream while i was at MS. so im kinda full when i met her. chit chatted a little before we both go home. haha. rene dearest.. im happy for you at the same time im concern.. dont be too afraid or think too much okie. haha lets try not to be a thinker for once. haha!

alright. ive finally got my grad pics from yeelin. so i shall post it here...


its US! Mich, meself, Yeelin and Peishan






ps and myself


mich and myself.


yeelin and ps


yeelin and mich


yeelin and ME


we took neoprints at TM. we spend two hours POSING. haha actually.. two hours in the neoprint shop la. haha

thats all.

Attitude HUh.

i also know how to show attitude. i also know how to be a stuck up person.

you said you dont care. so be it. dont care lor.

do i owe anything for all that shit?! ignoring, attitude-ing..........

anyways. the party was a waste of my time. i should have just be daring and not care about anything to just go home and sleep. damnit. the party started at 6am this morning. and i didnt go home last night coz i dont wanna waste money to go down town for that party. so i stayed at MS throughout. its boring. the only time ive enjoyed was the time i was at Kbox MS. we took the pool table room which is 801 and enjoyed lar. we sang, played pool and rested. but i couldnt get to my dreamland. coz the songs are played freaking out loud lar. sang from 12+ to 4am. good? haha.

got to C8-Kbox Cineleisure Lvl 8. got in and the place is damn packed. i wanted to just go home lor. they just played some games but not many were involved. and gave prizes. and thats all. go home. i head down to MS instead. didnt sleep the whole day lor. so im in need of a good rest. got there at 8++ and slept till 1030am and get prepared for work. imagine... im working and im so shagged. sigh..... and still need to see attitude. nvm. i tolerate.. till 630pm.. i couldnt take it. i got angry. so i just shut up. and ignore that person. a tired man is an angry man. im also tired. i also want to sleep. damn attitude people. and i just went to the party to be an audience lor. aRGH.

im in a foul mood and im tired and im hungry. i just ate 2 pieces of bread in the morning. and fries and mcflurry at 5++pm. thats my meal for today. haha! ive lost my appetite from all the shit.

i didnt have any good times. but still i hope everyone enjoyed their day!

hi world.

haha. its a very boring day at work. ive got nothing to do. its like theres not many customers lar. haha.

im still cold. im still cold. im still cold. im wearing jacket to sleep everyday lor. oh. and i slept super early last night. ard 11plus pm. but i got up at 2+am coz i thought im late for work. then at 4+am coz im having cramps on my left leg. i cant take it. too painful. its like... why do i get leg cramps even when im sleeping????!!??!!!??!!!!! it happened many times. whats wrong with my blood circulation huh? haha. i got up from bed and started to cover my mouth coz im screaming. its too painful lar. and screaming i went back to sleep. haha. funny ehs. haha. i hope it wouldnt happen tonight. coz i really needa sleep.

and theres a Staff Party for kbox staff tmr at C8 which is Cineleisure at level 8. the time is 6am on sun. but they take it as a SAT. its a sun lar. so i wun be home on SAT. ohmygod. and attendance is COMPULSORY. sigh. ive already plan to not go lor. but sigh... compulsory!!!!

im working at 11am and party starts at 6am. how good........... oh GOD.. i need STRENGTH!

alrights. im tired. i need to rest. goodnite dear world~

a SIAN and TIRED me.

its been raining like mad these few days and im super cold every single day. its pouring heavily everyday. and these morning i was so lazy to get outta bed for work. i nua till i really feel like faking that im sick, here pain there pain so i dont hafta work. i really dragged myself to work la. im totally not in the mood to do anything today.

im so tired the whole day i wanna sleep. i hope i could have many days off so i can sleep at home.

got home at around 8++pm and i went to do the laundry and sweep the floor. wanted to da sao chu but im too tired to do that. so i guess i'll do that when ive regained my energy. which is.. i dont know when. haha. sometime this week i'll do all the cleaning. haha!

bought bread from some bread shop. and when im eating it.. man its HARD lor. how to eat? so i put it in the microwave. haha. and the bread is super big. and theres only a small part with cheese. so i ate half of it and threw it away. i cant believe im stuffing myself with FLOUR. and i bought sausage bun and i ate the sausage only and i bought currypuff and yummie the currypuff is good. haah!

was walking home. and theres this woman.. she is a MUTE lar. she dont know how to say excuse me she just pushed her way through me. and i was at the currypuff stall looking at whats available there. she just came in and squeezed in the middle of the other customer and myself. i was pushed aside by her bigger size body. all i expected was she saying excuse me.

while i was at work, was asked to give out flyers again. and there came this group of ah bengs? asked: can i have your number? i said no right away. then they started: WHY? make friend only ma and etc. i was like.. wanna throw the flyers at them. haha. no lar. i dont make friends that way. and they left and hunt for the other girl and i think that girl gave her number away. i was like.. whats with guys asking for numbers from strangers? they're not being friendly. they're being desperate. haha!

im questioning myself alot these days. haha. kinda personal too. sorry cant post it here. forgive me dear world. and bestie........ hurhur!

my place is getting more and more alive. haha. many roadside pasar malam is setting up for CNY. and soon....... there will be many people coming down to walk around. and my dad's coming back in just two weeks. haha! how good ehs! haha.

oh. bestie and i took pictures at Jol's place during xmas eve. and i stole the picture from her friendster. haha

here!!



i miss you as much bestie. haha!

ITS MY GRADUATION DAY!

got up super early this morning. and get ready for my grad. was doing things real slowly and putting on make up to make myself look prettier, coz i wanna look good in my pictures. okie. got to school and man.. the principal can really talk for a very long time.. till i wanna doze off. haha. and theres sooooo many graduands.. by the time i step on stage to receive my so called cert.. im half dead. haha!

the free complimentary pictures given wasnt a professional shot. it seems to me like the worst picture that photographer has taken. worse! theres one where i could only see half of the girl's face. how sad huh? haha.

was sitting down on my seat and saw the Director of Schools on stage.. shaking hands and talking. so i was wondering.. how come theres so much to talk about on stage.. and know what? its actually like this: Director: hello! Congratulations! please look forward and smile. thats all the Director said. haha! imagine she, having to say the same thing to hundreds of graduands? haha!

okie. took pictures after the ceremony.. and head down to tampines and had buffet at Seoul Garden. haha. had a great meal. walked around. and off to meet some old friend.

alrights.. here are SOME of the pics taken today. some only.. when my friend send me the others.. i'll upload again!


its Michelle, myself, Yeelin and Peishan.. out of the whole group only we turned up..


hehe. before the ceremony.. haha




ive finally gotten my CERT! hahah!

saw Mr Tay this morning and know what did he say? WAA Jessie. you didnt turn up for my lesson many times and you still got B! wow.. and i replied.. i also did some self revision one. haha! and he said he came to a conclusion that the ppl who turned up often dont get good grades haha! Mr Tay is one of the BEST teachers ive ever met. super patient and super kind. haha!

just got home from town. towned with bestie. haha! went shopping and eating. haha! ive been eating tom yam and spicy stuff for like many many days. haha or maybe two weeks. haha!

hmm. its my graduation day tomorrow. and know what? haha i forgot to alter my long black pants and tmr im gonna look really ugly lar. sigh. i was mentally disturbed the whole day coz i was wondering if i did left something undone. and i couldnt remember anything and at 10++pm then i remember! how good ehz? but its too late. sigh..

took pictures outside kbox yesterday. haha. and know what? SHE came kbox ytd haha and i had a reallllll close look at the three of them. ELLA look damn cute. HEBE look pretty and SELENA? hmm.. look very mature lar. haha! i like ELLA! took pictures with them tgt with the Kbox staff. im right infront of ella. well she asked me to be infront of her as im smaller in size lar. haha! and know what? when the SHE's needa go to the ladies... many ppl escort them one please. and its just them and the whole toilet its for them. noone are able to use that toilet lor. please lor. i was like DOTs man. but well. they're e famous GIRL BAND haha. we are just the WORKERS. haha. not as famous as them. haha.and their make up is reallllly thick and they look reallllllllly good! haha.


bought earrings and belts today.. haha. getting more!!!! haha

and im getting more blueblacks everywhere lar. today. for the many times, i hit my hand on the wall again.. not that im mad. its just that i swing my arms and bang i hit the wall. and im really OUCH! and i broke many glasses today. its freaking full house at kbox since 11am. so many yao gui. haha! no lar. haha. its good that theres many customers lar. but i bth some of them.. keep coming to ask not for once but many times if their lunch is ready. i was thinking to myself.. if its ready.. i would have served it to u what. and im not the chef or what. im just a server i dont cook. and the klunch is from Yuki Yaki. and its THE YUKI YAKI kitchen cooking their lunch freaking slow. customer checked in at 11am. some only get to eat their lunch at either 1pm or later. its not we want to drag... its the cooking that is wasting our time. we want to make more money. we wouldnt want to keep all the customers in the rooms. we want more customers to check in....

so friends. if u do come and check in for klunch at kbox.. kindly understand us please? its will be great. and let me tell u now.. the aircon at kbox is freaking cold so bring along a jacket or blanket. haha! im serious. im shivering almost everyday haha! so dont come kbox and complain soooo cold and ask us to increase the temperature and we cant. we would be the first to increase the temperature coz we're working there..but we cant so we didnt.. so stop bothering us. some customers hor.. explain to them our situation they cant understand one lor. im sooo pissed with some. sigh... but well.. i know all customers who checked in as klunch aree super hungry lar. haha. when u guys start eating... enjoying... do u know that ive no time to eat at all? haha! coz im busy serving u all haha. actually i can eat before i start work lar. but sleep is precious so i choose to sleep longer.. haha!

alrights.. heres the pic that i took with my kbox friends.


from left: chermaine, adeline,bao bao, me, yide and top :wee ling

08Jan06
i was thinking if i should blog. kinda lazy to type what ive been doing. but well. i couldnt sleep so i shall just add some thoughts here.

alright. work? as usual. getting more and more boring i feel la. haha. Candy Empire called me up to ask me to work but i missed that call due to work. but sigh. how? when im still working at Kbox. and the person in-charge just used sms way to communicate with me. the latest day for me to start work at CE is february. so its up to them to employ or to not employ me. haha.

well. its already the ninth of Jan 06. time flies yea? haha. and soon will be February. am i thinking real far or isit the time is going really fast? i only know i had a dreadful week. boring week maybe? sigh. a very nua week. a sian week.

and im beginning to feel irritated with myself. coz of my FORGETFULNESS. i couldnt remember what i did last week. or maybe im lazy to think? basically i just remember what i have to do in the future the present. but i totally forget about yesterday.

im all ready for my graduation day this wednesday. almost 80% of the necessary stuff ive gotten ready. im looking forward to it. hopefully i could see Nelson Ong coming to attend the ceremony. i'll be sad if you didnt turn up buddy.

met serene after work. and its pouring damn heavily outside. poor serene got drenched. haha. met her for dinner. we're really hungry by the time we met each other. im hungry till i wanted to order many many food. haha. we had porridge somewhere nearby my place. then, ling, cindy, jolean, vevian, cindy's brother joined us later. they just got back from SHOPPING trip at Johor. how good! haha.

ate and chatted. haha. i think we're the loudest over there. talked damn loud lar. had some little girl talk also talk till damn loud. bth. and we also laughed out loud. im serious. haha. we just cant be bothered with the people around us lar.

we stayed till 11+pm and off i go home. haha. slacked and im soon gonna be in bed. haha.

oh. and this morning i got up from bed freezing cold. and i just step into the bathroom and i realised the electricity has GONE out throughout the whole block. and ive to bathe and get to work. so i was freezing and bathing in that freaking damn cold water. i was jumping and bathing at the same time due to the COLDNESS im feeling. and i was shivering at the same time lar.

i had a realllyyyy cold morning. and now im super cold still.... at work.. the aircon is like free? its so cold and i couldnt take it. and one of the customer called and said if we dont lower the temperature, we might have to go and collect dead body in the room. coz its really freezing cold. even the toilet seat at kbox. when u sit on it.. you can feel the CHILL. haha

was out with bestie ytd. and i had dinner over at Cineleisure again. same place and same dish. haha. kinda bored of it. and i ordered my fav MOZERELLA CHEESE STICK. haha. and the leftover were packed for the hungry woman. and she is SERENE. and she save it for breakfast instead. haha

anyway. im getting more and more pissed and super cannot take it with some people at work.february please come soon..............

*yawn*

im tired now. i wanna sleep. hehe.

but before i sleep i shall add one more entry here.

work wasnt that fine today. it was freaking tough. well. i dislike being blamed or told off for something which i dont think its my fault. i was like DOTsSs when i was being asked why this and that. and i was more speechless when a friend would actually get scolded for any small wrongdoings i did. its like my goodfriend at work will get scolded coz of me. how do you feel huh? i felt TERRIBLE.

theres this 3 guys- student- they are suppose to leave kbox at 430pm. but nobody bother to even last call them which means to tell them its their last song and they have to leave after singing. and nobody even bother to tell them the time is up. so they stayed till 520pm. wow. that freaking long for them. and from 4pm to 430pm i wasnt at kbox. i was ASKED to go and GIVE OUT FLYERS outside Marina. its was this person who IS suppose to do the job.

i got back to kbox after giving out the flyers. i went to the ladies and did what i always do. slacked in the toilet. coz im a non smoker and so i do not have the chance to slacked in the rooms in Kbox so my only chance is when im in the toilet. so i just sat on the toilet bowl and daydream for like 5-8 mins. and i went back to work. and when im back on floor its like erm...5++pm. and i was looking at the last call paper meaning the rooms i have to last call lar. and i saw Rm13. so i went to check.. MAN! they are still there. so i went and quickly last call them. in the end i heard: All Floor Staff please proceed to the Recept. and there i got told off.

whats wrong man? isit me or isit them? my heart was saying what the hell and question marks??????????? ARghhhh..

im called stupid when i forget what i was taught five mins ago. and said im not keen to learn at all. if im not keen, why would i even ask? tell me why? if im not keen why would i even want to learn to be a receptionist. if im not keen i would have rejected learning. and damn someone said i cant even operate the photocopying machine and said how can i work in a office in future. oh man. can a baby walk once they are born? or when you teach little kid abc today, can they still remember tmr? gotta teach them everyday wad. im human. im not GOD. or maybe im really a slow learner. thats why i belong to the NT stream ya.

and damn that machine. its so different from the other machines ive used in my aunts office. RAhhhh...

sometimes when im serious. people think theres something wrong. but when i start smiling and be ME. they think i aint serious. WADDA HELL?

so what they want huh? what huh? tell me lar. damnit.

you think i want to be slow mehz? you think i want to get scolded meh? you think im really that stupid? you think im those not keen to do anything one? you think im those who take everything as a joke? ARgh!

thats the world ya? THE complicated world.

anyway. my pays out and its sooooooo little. sigh. and im taking care of myself this month. no more financial support from dad. how ssad.

aunt pester/scolded me to work and said that with that extra income i can buy things that i want. den i got a job. she said since ive earned i can take care of myself. i need not any extra cash from dad. i was like DOTS. ive got nth to say. so i just. OKIE. damnit. isit me or isit her? isit me who is stupid or isit her who do not mean what she say?

okie thats the unhappy me for today.

alright. on the way home phoned serene dear and i felt happier. hha. coz i know she'll ans or she'll call back lar. haha. den she called back and we chatted. i felt so good talking to someone ive known for 6-7 years. imagine talking to someone whom know you soooooo well. its sooooo good. rather than talking to those who dont really know you or known you for like a few months.

and the other happier things is im soon be on bed. and i really miss my bed lar. haha. and thinking about dad... he's coming back soon... hahaha...and its already the fifth. and soon...its feb. haha! another pay day im waiting.

im excited for the upcoming things. my graduation day. chinese new year. when dads back. valentine's day. bangkok trip. new school life. new subjects to learn. new friends. holidays.. and i wanna relax for that holiday. haha! and many many.

i wanna eat many good food. i wanna go nice places. i wanna go cheapo places too. im poor lar. haha! im a happy poor girl! hahahaha!

well. beside me being sad and complaining about many things. still wanna wish everyone goodnight and sweet dreams and most importantly be BLESSED!

lastly.. love my IJ FRIENDS! bestie esp.

bestie: thou no time to meet. i still miss you many! pls do take care and ask me out soon okie.

dear world~! Jessie me is HOME!

well. just got home from town. wow! went shopping with serene dear and man ive got so many things that i wanna get! haha! especially this blazer. wow! i wanna GET IT! hur hur. but i hafta pay for the deposit. and man! im so damn broke now and i cant even pay that deposit. haha. so i cant reserve for it and i gave up on that blazer. im just praying hard now that noone will get that blazer so i got the chance to get it this weekend. coz the stock is limited already! hurhur!

went to G2000 and i saw this blazer and i love it. anyway my size is 3 haha! but the prob is, i do not have any pants to combine with that beautiful blazer and man all the pants aint available for my size! Arghhhh.. im size 2-3 for pants la. the rest is like 4-5 likdat. wear liao can drop ahs. haha!

went to this shop at Far East and i saw this off shoulder top while serene was trying on her darker coloured off shoulder top. mine is yellow and i love it. and i saw one white pants super fit with the top. im so gonna get it soon!

went Charles and Keith. man i saw this slipper. i so love it. hurhur i saw two lar. i wanna get it. went to the bikini shop. oh man i also wanna get one. went to the urbanmale shop over at heeren. i saw one more top and i love it! and many many more la. basically we got town around 3++pm and we shop till 7++ and had dinner..

oh about our dinner! its HEAVEN! omg.. i tell you. its super duper good. such heavenly good food. give me such a big freak out after eating. coz im feeling fat. okie its like this. rene and i went cineleisure with a plan to dine at the Jap Restaurant. but den walked all the way up and reached this place which is called. Friends Galilee. and we looked through the Menu outside the place and WOW it totally satisfied my hunger i tell you. haha!

got in and sat on such comfy seat. and we placed our order. please this restaurant have got no SERVICE charge or CESS charge. so we see NO SERVER around. the guy who came and show us the menu was the one who cook/serve/type in order.basically the one who "bao ka liao". and his Customer Service is SUPER GOOD! im serious and the food is super good! very nice. and man the DESSERT is WOW! super nice trust me. please just go and dine there.haha. the oreo something something is way tooooooo delicious. im in love with it. and it cost only 2.90 from mon to thurs. and its actual price is 6++8 can! oh my... its super nice la!

and the names they gave to the food they serve. its super funny. theres finding nemo. the godfather.ocean twelve and many. they serve many many nice food lar. the price is affordable too. and oh. they do not serve ice water like KBOX. haha! so im like dying coz i dun wanna pay for the drinks. haha! and for pubs they have got free flow of drinks... for the restaurant, theyve got free flow of mushroom soup. haha! hot yummy delicious soup. haha! the serving not bad also.. i like it. i like the place. was laughing with rene non stop. isit me or isit her? haha! its must be SERENE. hahA. mad woman. haha! we talk out loud and laugh out loud. haha! and not forgetting to take pictures. haha.when serene send the pics to me. i'll upload. haha!

and i ate salmon spaghetti and two big bowls of mushroom soup and ice cream on waffle and serene's oreo mudpie? haha. that mudpie is super big i tell u. haha! we're both freaking full when we left that place. was fully satisfied. i was like wow.. had a great meal. i waited since BREAKFAST.

serene dear!! lets go there place soon ya? we'll go this sat to other new places we've nv been. please make yourself free hor. we've just booked each other okie. so watch ya schedule closely. haha!

dear all.. its pay day tmr. im so super excited.. oh man.. ive pulled through finally.. my second pay.. thank God for all the strength/patience man!

oh.. i did some quiz from tf blog. and i got fooled... wow! felt stupid after reading :opppss..youve been fooled! thanks ah TF! haha.

okie. ive enjoyed this off day today. haha!

its my off day today!

supposingly on thurs but ive changed it with my workmate, coz he wants thurs and i dont want. its pay day on thurs how can i take off on that important day? haha. and i need to get the cash real soon as my graduation is in just a few more more days. needa get office wear. ive plan what im gonna wear on that day but.. im not sure if any shops in Singapore has what i want at this moment. haha. im so so looking forward to the graduation as i'll get to see my cliques in school and get my result! yes!

and im still wondering who should i invite for my graduation.........i wanted to just ask grandma along without aunt coz i just want that important someone who is my grandma to see me graduating from my one year course and moving forward to the second year. i want grandma to see me going a level higher up and know that i can make it in anything. why? coz she is forever worrying for me. well. i know she loves me. im dear to her and so is she. i wanted to invite my beloved brother, but sigh.. that man is in camp during that day. and also my next important someone...ive decided to just drop that idea of asking. haha!

seeing my hair getting longer and longer each day.. im happier and happier! haha. looking at the neoprints i took with my beloved long hair. i just get more excited to see myself infront of the mirror with my long long hair in just a few more months time. haha!

oh and ive watched the Chinese Tall Story with my Kbox friends. oh man. its a must NOT watch show lar i feel. the only part i love from the story its the ending. haha. but its quite sad lar. their love was separated and the girl become a white horse and the Monk continued his journey to "qu si jing" a monk in love with a girl. very in love and was separated by Fate. haha. i do not believe in fate. im just interested in the few words that popped out during the last part of the show and i forgotten what are they.. i only know something about love. haha!

i wanna watch the Curse of the dont know what were-rabbit? haha. i think it'll be nice. haha! i also wanna watch The Heirloom. its a horror show if im not wrong. i wanna watch The Fog also and The dreamer. okie i want to watch many shows lars. theres still more but i forgot the Title of the movie.

been listening to this song entitled miss you. introduced by my brother. its really a miss you song lar. haha! its like this. it started with:

Dont be afraid to cry,
it wasnt a waste of time..
it just couldnt......
and i knew you couldnt stay.
you had to go your way
its really nothing left to say.

but everynow and then you cross my mind
and i try to not think about where you are tonight.............

but i miss you.
cause i really miss you.
theres no going back cause whats done is done.
but i miss you.
cause i really miss you. i miss you.
but sometime its just stay ended.

hey we turning like a rose was it me or was it you.

i know we cant go down the road again
and it hurts too much to think it might have been..

but i miss you.
cause i really miss you.
theres no going back cause whats done is done.
but i miss you.
cause i really miss you.i miss you.
but sometime its just stay ended

but i miss you. i couldnt hold you.
cause i miss you i couldnt hold you.
sometimes it aint enough.

i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.

i know you cant escape from the past the way chosen but everynow and then i know i did.

i know i cant go down the road again.
and it hurts too much to think it might have been.....

but i miss you.
cause i really miss you.
theres no going back cause whats done is done.
but i miss you. i miss you.
cause i really miss you. i miss you.
but sometime it just stay ended

but i miss you.
cause i really miss you. i miss you.
sometimes look just aint enough.

but i miss you. i miss you.
but i miss you. i miss you.....

well thats the lyrics.. i typed while listening. haha.

its my off day and i cant be staying at home the entire day. i'll be out searching for my office wear. haha! meet my dearest! haha!

bye my dear faithful readers..

im here again dear complicated world.

had not been faithful in blogging. haha. coz im lazy and i dont have time to blog lor. haha. had been like so sleepy every single day. got bed and poof straight into my dreamland. how good.. haha.

ask hows work? haha. sometimes its very tough. but sometimes its enjoyable. sometimes i feel that some things i did wasnt appreciated. but well. thats the world. what can i expect? haha. people in the world wants more. not being contented. sometimes i was being blamed for something i dont think its my fault but its some communication break down. but what can i say? so i just shut up and continue working. haha. silence can make things turn peaceful. no quarrel all. haha. basically im just a person who is working there but my heart my mind aint there lar. im afraid of doing things wrong everytime.

thats about work. so world, how did you all spent 31DEC2005? went for countdown? enjoyed looking at fireworks with your dears darls and friends? haha. tell you what. i countdowned all by myself and was watching the beautiful fireworks all by myself at esplanade. aWWWww... how GOOD? haha. its like this, was supposed to meet dearest and bestie at esplanade. they got there first and i decided to join them later coz i wasnt feeling well that time. and so i got there ard 11++pm and man the place is freaking crowded. aRghh. squeezed my way through. its like body sticking body. aRghh.. i was like oh God.. am i at the correct place? sigh. nvm. den that damn reception turned super laggy and it totally suck. couldnt get my friends. and so its time for counting down and poofffff pop pop pop.. fireworks i see!!! and im envious of those couples right infront of me.. ARghhh.. so i shared the joy with my hp. took pics and smile to myself.. and reflect for a little while and poofff i start my searching game!

i never gave up searching since ive reached esplanade. but i just couldnt find or get them. i was pissed after searching for about an hour with so many ppl sticking and pushing. i gave up so i wanted to go home.. just when i give up.. i managed to get Serene dearest! and shes also looking for me. she was more of like worried la. cos im alone... thanks for searching for me too. haha!so found her and started meeting other friends. and nua and walk and home....

well.. my new year resoloution!!!

erm..

jian fei?. pass exams. my ai ren?? erm. a stronger me? and many. im lazy to type out.. i wan all of the good things la. haha.

its a new year and im looking forward to meeting all the new challenges in life. but at the same time im worried and afraid. im afraid it might be tooo hard for me. im worried that i might not overcome it. i dont know who i can depend on when it happens..

okie. but whatever it is. all things happens for a good reason lar. character moulding. haha!

be blessed dear world. haha!